On the Mend

It’s been a while since I’ve posted on here, and for that I do apologise. Things have been extremely busy with university study, but I thought now would be apt to share my recent experiences particularly with regards to the counselling treatment I’ve started (see https://nosuperhero.wordpress.com/2015/02/28/validation/ ). I have to say I didn’t really know what to expect when it came to my first session; the only ‘insight’ I’ve had into counselling/therapy consisted of jokey allusions to it via shows such as Family Guy which is perhaps rather unfortunate. The set up was what I expected though: me and the counsellor in a small room, perhaps with a cup of tea, boxes of tissues and sheets of paper to fill out. My first steps into the room were apprehensive ones. Though I knew it was an amazing thing to have got there, I still wanted to turn back and leave. I wanted to turn around, run through the front door and seamlessly merge back into the crowds walking the streets of Hull; I didn’t want to have my life probed and picked apart. I knew though that there was no going back. This could prove to be the beginning of something wonderful, something life-changing.

After completing the mandatory paperwork (filling out scales 1-10, ‘how easy has it been for you to get out and about? etc) the session started. Almost immediately afterwards, the tears began to flow. Tears not only of anxiety and sadness and frustration, but tears of relief. Someone was sat in front of me who genuinely seemed to express an interest and concern for my life. They made me feel (for once!) at ease somewhat. And most of all, things started to make sense. I’ve had two sessions so far and I’d like to think I’m finally on the right track, or at least headed in the right direction, whichever that is. I’m under no illusions. I know this will take time and although each session has been emotionally exhausting, I just feel like for once I can see a glimpse of light at the end of the long, dark tunnel. It’s a glimmer of light I couldn’t be happier to see.

Here’s to hope and new beginnings…

Heather

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Feeling Human Again

It’s been an extremely busy few weeks and I’ve really struggled to make time for myself, but I’m glad to say I’ve managed to get through it. I’m in third year at university, and whilst I won’t say that I think the content of my course necessarily gets harder, the workload has definitely increased and so I’m spending more and more time trying to get everything done! I had two essays due in this week, one for the Monday and one for the Thursday, so as you can probably guess, I’ve been doing nothing but staring blankly at my computer screen, so blogging was completely out of the question! However, these essays formed the last two assessed pieces of work for this semester, so I’ll be able to gradually get back into a routine in no time.

There are a few posts I’m looking at publishing over the next week or so, and some are a slight departure of what I’ve written previously. Firstly, I was nominated for a Lovely Blog Award a while back, so I’m going to crack on with getting that sorted, which should be great! I’m also going to be involved in a fantastic opportunity tomorrow (and I’m extremely excited about it) because I’m heading to my first ever bloggers meet! It’s going to be a fantastic day, but it don’t want to give away too much so I’m going to post all about it after having met all the lovely, wonderful people who have made it possible and I’ll share with you what we did over the course of the day. It will be such a fabulous end to a hectic week! You can check out what were all tweeting by using #HullBloggers . There’s also a great blogging opportunity at the minute called the ’30 Day Book Challenge’, and since I study English Literature you can probably gather that I really enjoy reading. I’m going to look at starting this over the next week, too, as I think it’s a really great way to see what other people enjoy reading and it may give you some inspiration. Finally, I’m hoping to share with you my tips and techniques to help with keeping stress at bay, either during assessment time, or particularly stressful periods at work and/or home. Because I have to always take into account my cerebral palsy and my back problem during my studies and everyday life, I can end up in a serious amount of pain during busy, stressful periods, so I need to make sure I have the techniques in place to deal with my stresses and worries (which are further magnified by my pain). With greater stress comes greater pain, so I hope I can shed some light on my own de-stressing techniques which you may (or may not, of course) find useful.

So until then, I hope you all have a wonderful weekend and take care of yourselves in this chilly weather!

Heather